a handshake ...

it's weird when a handshake makes you feel it all at once ...
it was just a handshake it doesn't make any sense ! ...
yet it was one of my favorite ones ...
as holding his hand and saying goodbye ...
it was the best feeling and the worst ....
to know that we will never be this close ...
to know that he is leaving a big bruise ...
i still remember every single detail of that moment ...
the smell and the colors ...
not to mention his shoes ...
and the shape of the floor that was holding us ...
his hand felt so cold and big yet very soft ...
and as i looked up ... his extra size shoulders made a very large wall ...
blocking me from the outside world ...
the smile on his face ... saying with a small giggle : you gonna cry ?!
that's when everything turned blur ....
human body system ... i hate the way you work ....
it's weird when it's just a handshake ...
yet that's the only thing proves that the one week wasn't fake ...
it was real !! i had a time i will never trade ...
all the laughter and joy ... all the figures and toys ...
and the final scene with the handshake ...
and knowing that might be the last time to see his face ...
i had no choice but to keep it as a memory that'll never fade ....
i loved you !! it is just sad that i'll never say it ....