confession ...

i liked the way you confessed ... how honest , decent , and unique it was ...
i liked the courage you gathered and the risk you took ...and the meaningful words you said ...  they all reached my heart and nourished my soul ... i smiled for a bit ...  i was happy to know that i can leave such impact on someone ... but then ... my face went dark ... something squeezed my heart ... knowing that i won't be able to give you this little dose of happiness you asked for ... i won't share with you these dreams you once fantasized ... i won't say the words yo always wanted to hear ... i know how sad and painful it will be ... but i also know that this is how i want things to be ... i know that you will get over it in a heart beat ... i know you will find someone better than me ... i know that you are strong enough to move on ... and find  the one who can give you what you need ... i'm sure you'll love her more and cherish her more ... you'll shake her throne and take over her castle ... you will draw colors in the blank walls ... you will have the key to the closed doors ... and you will step on that high floor ... and i'll be a past for once living in this mind of yours ... 
i will have my own memory of you too ... 
that you loved me and you knew how to say it 
i know how hard it was for you to spill it 
my favorite confession ... the special brave knight ... 
the strong heart and might ... 
the one who once grabbed my heart and sight ...

16.3.2014